Easy way out

I hear of all these things happening back at home....today was a bandh. the economic blockade is still going strong with no hopes of termination in the near future. Its sad...may be beyond sad. I was listening to some contemporary music of today's youngsters showing their angst through music. I guess everybody wants a change. It may be that a greater number want to pack their bags and leave Manipur due to the prevailing situation. That is the easy way out. We are paid according to our abilities, we dont have to face the problems of bandhs, electricity and the sort of daily saga of violence which we face everyday.

The most disappointing part is that the people have somehow gotten used to the pathetic condition and have adjusted their lives accordingly. It is like the story of the frog in the well. We've forgotten to fight for our lives and even if we have fought, we've faced bitter defeat and the struggle goes on..... News of violence that adorn the newspapers everyday are mere topics of discussion on the breakfast table. A blast kills many lives; the next day the relatives stage a demonstration and after a few days nobody even remembers. What is the value of life?

There is no hope for Manipur at least in the near future. We have a generation of youth caught in bribery and corruption, ready to buy a mere graduate job for 12 lakhs. There are a lot of masses fighting against the system at their own level and I appreciate and admire their inspiration and courage. It is just too selfish to stay silent, complain about the system and get involved with our own lives. May be it is foolishness as some claim, may be it will be of no use outwardly, but I guess I am just doing my part and giving back what I owe coz this is all I can do at present.

Love's to blame....am simply loving this song!!

Time in Time I thought through it all
How we loved and loved 
and how we fought each other
pushing one another
to be somebody else

and time in time for the rest of my thoughts
I certain if the end was right or wrong
and whether we so should be together with somebody else

a lost memory 
she had water in her eyes
she cried stay with me
say how can this be loved 
if you are leaving me
but darling love's to blame

and i can't see you right now
'cause my heart just can't take it
can't be near you right now
'cause i know you're no longer mine
I can't see you 

it makes me ache that we had to break 
even though i knew your heart so well
we're strangers in different places 
thought we're livin mile apart

my best friends got my world as being soft 
we'll never share a name of her be promed 
but i will always remember the years we've spent in love

I still think of you
I pray that you were save 
I'm still missing you 
but it has to be this weakest 
I'm not right for you
and that's why love's to blame

and i can't see you right now
'cause my heart just can't take it
can't be near you right now
'cause i know you're no longer mine
I can't see you right know
'cause my heart just can't fake it 
can't be near you rigth now 
cause I know you're no longer mine

and I can't see you
oh i can't see you
I just can't see you right now

But maybe time will heal the hearts
and maybe after time you'll understand 
I take the darker side of me 

and i can't see you right now
'cause my heart just can't take it
can't be near you right now
'cause i know you're no longer mine
and I can't see you right know
'cause my heart just can't fake it 
can't be near you rigth now 
cause I know you're no longer mine

and i can't see you 
no, i can't see you 
i just can't see you rigth now

no i can't see you 
i just can't see you 
i just can't see you right know

and love's to blame

To be a better person

There are people in my life whom I admire to the highest degree....i value the qualities they have and I really wish i am half as good as them...it is what makes them stand out in the crowd..its their identity. It takes a lot of experience and outlook to be the person we are today....I see a successful woman walking equally with her male counterparts and admire her gracefulness and intelligence but I overlook the toil she had endured all these years to be the person she is today!!

Each day i wish I were a better person...better in each way.....more humble, loving, kind, gossip less, more forgiving, spiritual and a little more selfless.....I know im this selfish, arrogant, carefree and impulsive person but I wish I can change!! 

A New Beginning

Well, things just keeps brewing up in my head about what to write and I keep procrastinating....busy schedules,  academic priorities is the reason I give to myself but in reality its sheer laziness which I guess is getting chronic and I seriously need to work on it. Im hitting my silver jubilee of life with not so much as an achievement that I can be proud of. I've met some really good friends, fallen in love, got dumped, dumped someone, aspired to be a writer, went on a blind date, got drunk, tasted bitter defeat, laughed to tears, got a job and left it for greener pastures, went on a diet, cried myself to sleep, stayed alone for months and still aspiring to be a writer........the list goes on and I guess I am getting to know the wilder side of me more :P I know this isn't enough. I've a lot more coming up and I just have to give time to the things that matter the most to me. I wish I am more organised like some of my friends.......I screwed up many things in life for which there is no way back but atleast I have a hope that a better tomorrow awaits me and this is all that matters now. XOXO