Monday, 4 January 2016

Random Thoughts of a Bride

Just how much is too much is one question which we fail to answer when it comes to living upto the standards which has been set by our society. I have become sabbatical when it comes to my career and have taken a 3 months career break coz I have to plan my wedding and be with my parents with whom I have never spent enough time since I decided to leave home for my studies which was more than a decade ago. And yes, I am genuinely amazed at how well I am doing. My fiancé gets mad at me for wasting this precious time worrying about the future and insists on enjoying the little time left at this place which I have called home since my existence. Seriously I am working on it and trying to avoid panic attacks thinking of this career break and making best use of the few weeks before marriage.

So here it is….I am getting married next month to this wonderful soul who taught me more to respect and receive coz he is the most generous person I ever know. As the countdown to the D day begins there are elephants running in my stomach (oh screw the butterflies), will I be able to handle the responsibilities? I am pampered by my Daddy who uses the most beautiful  and flowery words to correct me if I am wrong so that I don’t feel offended unlike my Mom who barge on me for every slightest mistake I make coz she is damn sure that I will screw up at my in-law’s place. The prep has started, my brothers have started painting the gate and walls of our house…which is like mandatory ritual for a Meetei wedding. My relatives keep pouring into our house, my siblings and friends settled thousands of miles away have all flown in to celebrate my wedding, tea and biscuits are constantly served, everyone is excited, scared, nervous, sad, happy and feeling hell lot of emotions right now.

As for me, I am still lost and clueless as to how I am gonna deal or react. Should I be happy that I am getting married to this man who have sworn to love and protect me and with whom I wanna spend the rest of my life with? Should I be worried about my parents who are getting old with their increasing health issues? Should I be sad on the realization that this place I have called home will no longer be what it was? Its tough really. And I feel like I am breaking from inside. Does every bride feel this way?

For a society like us, life before marriage and after marriage are completely different. As an unmarried girl, I have the freedom coz I live with people with whom I have known throughout my life. I get mad and shout at them and cry when I feel hurt and laugh my heart out when we share jokes, I get up early and go for walks and sometimes can even dare to sleep in pretending to be sick in lazy days. I have got out late evenings with my Daddy sometimes even after dark and enjoyed my days doing nothing lazing away. But now somehow I cannot imagine doing all that again. I have responsibilities now to take care of my new family and respect them. It gonna be different and I wish I am not scared as much as I am right now that I am gonna ruin things.

What I truly feel is that amidst all the shopping, picking up dresses, ordering furniture and basic utilities and spending heaps of money after bargaining like crazy with experienced vendors….its a blessing that I am gonna spend the rest of my life with my favourite person who is just perfect. Both of us have waited long enough and have had our shares of heartbreaks before finding each other and now that we have found each other I realized why it never worked out with anyone else.

Marriage is a union of two souls and two families and with the grace of God I wish to embark upon this journey and bring out the best of each other. For now let me think of all the joys I will be unraveling and rejoice on the love I am showered with from my new family and just enjoy all the attention as long as it lasts (wink)

Cheers to a lifetime of love and happiness. 


24 comments:

  1. Sweet and lovely as always che!! :) :)
    Keep Writing!!

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  2. Beautiful emotions..

    Wish more man read this..

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    1. Thank you Birosh! Really appreciate your thought :)

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  3. So beautiful and emotional..
    .I'm sure every bride in this word share the same feeling... Thank u for giving it words....as rightly quoted marriage is Union of two souls.. I wish ur bond be the strongest in the entire universe... May God continue to shower his blessings upon u... Stay happy stay blessed... Love u dear...:) reema

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    1. Thank you so much dear! You make my life beautiful!

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  4. Awww Che. This is raw emotions �� I am sure the elephants must've calmed a bit. All the best. Hugs and kisses.

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    1. The elephants have been tamed! Thanks baby sister! Love you XOXO

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  5. Very well written....Valen......U hv given words to the thoughts of a lot of girls...Wish u a wonderful life ahead.... Stay blessed....

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  6. Yumnam Pradesh1 March 2016 at 18:49

    Simple & beautifully expressed the emotions of a bride.Happy married life to the wonderful couple.

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  7. Oh Valen so beautifully written. May god showers you his blessings for the successful Journey of your new married life .l wish you all the best dear.

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  8. Beautifully knitted words, yet honest. Can feel the feelings every bride goes through.But not sounding as a chauvinist, I'm always at a perception that it is the girl that can make her new relation with the in-laws families as beautiful as she lived before with her own parents. Best wishes for your married life and all the buckets of wishes to have the best in-laws with all the fun u lived. Cheers!! Just a random visitor to every blog by Manipuris. Thanks

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    1. Thanks for dropping by! It works best when efforts are mutual from both parties ;)
      Thank you for your kind words!

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  9. When I saw Nive has shared your blog post ... I was every excited to read your post...really it Beautifully expressed your feelings....in near future i too feel that I will go through feelings like your not only me but all the girls in their phase of life.... Congratulations sis....n wish you a happy married life...:)

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  10. Hi Valen, I am Speechless after reading this , Wow so nicely you have expressed the emotions and feelings of Bride its really amazing , I wish you Good Luck to your Beautiful Journey of your life :)

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    1. Thank you so much Shilpa! Lots of love :)

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  11. master piece Pappu!! very beautifully expressed..... Oh I felt the same way dear...... U are such an amazing person every body in ur new family gonna love you. wish u happy married life ahead.! n welcome to the gang!

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  12. I wish you all the best to your life and have a beautiful marriage life ahead . Always god bless you and be a great mother. Marriage life is really amazing and everything will be change step by step and responsibility will be increase at the same you will be very happy . God bless you and may your dream comes true . I really miss your marriage ceremony. Lastly , stay healthy and always happy ....cheers

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