Friday, 23 March 2012

Circle of Friends

I used to consider myself fiercely independent until I met my wonderful girlfriends whom I consider “friends of a lifetime”. How I met them is another story which I happen not to be in the right note to pen down. Making friends isn’t a difficult task for me. I feel uncomfortable enduring weird silences and enjoy breaking the universal code of silence among strangers. So unless the person sitting right across doesn’t turn out to be a serial killer, it is always a pleasure to smile and say “Hi” and watch them thaw.

I believe woman needs another woman to support and understand each other at every stage of their life. They say “Behind every successful man there is a woman behind” but so also is a woman behind every successful woman. We always need someone in our lives to be our mentor, to love and feel loved, to bitch, to cry on, to hear us out, to relate to and to understand us. Even though I am totally straight I have to admit that I love the company of these beautiful women in my life who’ve made my life even more beautiful….more than hunky nerds. :)

Super massive embrace!!
We have seen each other in worst circumstances and watched each other relinquish childish prerogatives. From stupid girls who fret over a bad hair day to the relentless worries for not scoring good grades, from the gruelling jealousy when a cute guy asked one of us out to the excitement over a new pair of jeans, we’ve blossomed to women who enjoy dreaming of a perfect wedding, doting husband and cute kids. It’s a girl’s thing after all. We had a major heart break when a nail broke and laughed crazy when someone in purple mask opened the door. We go crazy when we go window shopping and stayed up whole night to lend a shoulder to cry on when one had a break up. It seems like yesterday that we were in the threshold of adulthood undecided and equally confused of career and relationships. Even if at times I enjoy solitude and wish to stay alone being lonely is a feeling I’ve not felt in many years.

I wish every woman finds another woman with whom she can rediscover herself no matter how far life has taken her and ignite the girlish charms in her and to dream again. It is about reaching out to your girlfriends yet again and celebrating womanhood!!

*This is for u VDz...Love u all!! :)

Monday, 12 March 2012

HIM and HER sat down to write a story....came out with all stupid ideas and held on to this one...realised how much more I need to work on :( 

She hated his guts and his arrogance. He had his own selfish ways of meeting his ends which she knew inside out. He was every bit of what she doesn’t want in a man. How can someone be so blunt about one’s feelings? He saw her twice and blurted out “I love you”. Is it even possible? Does he even know what “love” is? She politely refused but knew he would not give up easily. 

He first saw her on one of those nonchalant evenings when he was sitting idly with his friends talking, gossiping and enjoying their favourite sport “chick watch”. She walked past them without the slightest acknowledgement of him or his friends surpassing the macho image they flaunt and ignoring them in the most graceful way. She wasn’t the prettiest face he had ever seen. He was sure she was someone who will be oblivion after a couple of days. He wondered whatever happened to his charms to impress girls. He knew she would give lewd comments; talk rudely and dismiss him which was exactly what he wanted coz he found such woman amusing and loved the challenge. Never did he anticipated  that he was in for a tough call.

She paid no heed even when he appeared everywhere with his regular phone calls and messages. She wondered if he had nothing else better to do than to invade her privacy. She firmly told him not to call her again and assured that she was in no way interested. “Can we be friends?” he asked. “I don’t want to be. I have enough of friends whom I can’t even give time to” she replied sharply.

“You know you are a very proud girl” he said.

“Whatever, as if I care.”

He knew he should stop. He had bore enough of insult. She wasn’t even pretty enough but he liked the way she was all in the air. He dialed again and when she responded, he told “Look I don’t even know why I am calling you again. Consider yourself lucky coz I usually never do like this. I must be really liking you.” She laughed when she heard it. Gosh, how can anybody be so big-headed to say something like that? She asked “So, what do you want?” “I want you to be my girlfriend”? “You know you’re crazy!! What do you know about me?”

“I’ll know after you are my girlfriend. I like you”

She was so full of questions. It was impossible but she found herself drawn to him.  She didn’t want to take a chance though. As careful as she was in falling in love, as careless he was when it come to expressing his feelings.

He could feel the other side of her, the mysterious side beyond her pride and ego. Indeed this was the part of her that he found most appealing and attractive and worthy of the chase.

 (to be continued)

Wednesday, 7 March 2012

Oh, My people!!

Turned on my lap-top yesterday, surfed my favourite sites and it was everywhere....10th Manipur Legislative Assembly Election 2012 updates and timelined results, some updating the results, many commenting and providing useful insights, and many more merely enjoying the scene and ignoring the heated exchange of words, thoughts and anger. Even my Dad called me all so super-excited coz his candidate won.

It was a day of overwhelming joy for those who won, and for the many who've lost, a day as gloomy as ever, and still for many more people just another day. Nothing changed for them and it is this section of people for whom the highest concern is. They say "ignorance is bliss" and perhaps it best describes the vast majority of the people of Manipur and the situation of Manipur. The entire process of election was a faux paas. Our citizenship bought and sold and now its time to pay the price. For the next five year we have no choice but to stay back and bear the consequences. The 3 month long economic blocade, recent bomb blasts that shook the valley not to mention the decade long struggle for repealing AFSPA, innocent killings, issues of territorial integrity of Manipur, deteriorating education systems, unethical and corrupted system of the entire Government offices are the major forerunners in the never ending list of political and social problems of Manipur. For sure, each problem cannot be isolated as they are intricately woven as the roots of the present state of turmoil can be traced about half century ago and the struggle of the masses goes on. 

The irony is that the people remains seemingly untroubled and have adjusted their lifestyles from living without power supply for days altogether to paying 200 bucks for a litre of petrol to witnessing security personnels going haywire and firing innocent public. Atleast this is what the results indicate......we are just not yet ready for a change and until there is no mass awakening the hue and cry of the  afflicted few will fall into deaf ears as it always have throughout this years.

The winds of change just seem so distant....and its just hope and only hope that remains. 

Thursday, 1 March 2012

No good no bad

So near yet so far
So affectionate yet so arrogant
So arrogant yet so romantic
So passionate yet so angry
So angry yet so caring
So proud yet so true
So bold yet so shy
So rude yet so cool
So heartless yet so faithful
So strong yet so soft
So humorous yet so abusive
So cheerful yet so unpredictable
So impressive yet so docile
So patient yet so hostile
So difficult yet so easy
Living with and without you :)